ugh.....weirddddd

how is it that it is this close to the end of the year...but yet im getting the most work? i deffinately have senioritious. i dont want to do shit anymore...but yet i am always so busy through out the week. i am always so tired and im tired of being tired lol. i am glad and sad at the same time to be graduating... sad because... well... im leaving behind my life... duh. but glad because i finally get to sleep in more and i dont have to go to school anymore so early. i can arrange my own scheduale kind of. this summer i will beat delta and working part time.. and moving out is my goal by the end of the summer. i hope it works out. this will be more productive than sitting bearicated in those walls ....

yay!

So tomorrow i turn 18, and i am so looking forward to it. My brother just moved back in from The Air Force, and of course he is here on time for my 18th birthday. Haha, joy! right? I am going to get punched 18 times, and i know it will hurt. My dad says not to be suprised if i come home with my bed out on the lawn, and a sign that's saying "Rent Due". hahahaha. Ugh... my brother just punched me 1 time, and it fricken hurt! ..17 more to go :( MEHH!! lol. My mom took time off for my bday though(: I'm excited to see what i'm getting. My dad bought me a new phone, my mom is paying for me to get my tattoo finished, i know my bf got me something-but im not sure what it is yet, my gma got me 2 things, and she will bring them over tomorrow, and my bro.. i think all i get from him are punches? lol. nice!

my mom reminded me...

so  right now im playing a game called cribbage and it is soooo fun..if u havent played then u need to.

i hate not knowing..

this is very unlike you, you have always told me what's wrong with you! always. we are supposed to be bestfriends, and we always tell each other everything that is going on in our lvies no matter what; we agree'd that the truth is always best.. we have never had a problem talking to each other. now all of a sudden, you cant tell me this? you dont want to talk to me at all about this? i wish i knew what was going on.. i have no clue whats going on with you right now, and i hate it. i dont know what youre doing, where youre at, or how youre feeling.. you say youre okay, but i know youre not. i just wish you would tell me. im hoping you will tell me this weekend when you come over, but im not going to push you anymore. i fucking wish youd tell me though!!!!

well as i had read in class today..

i am still trying to come up with an answer to Rauls question.
i'm not sure how to answer it..
i mean i understand that i dont NEED him, but i know for sure I WANT him.
i need to be able to be happy without him. i need to work on myself. so im not all depressed or anything. because i pretty much gave up on life when we went on a break, and i shouldnt be like that.
he asked me what i have in my head about us.
about this world, out there. being on my own.
i need to learn independence.

okay so

i just finished writing the 6 pages of outside writing that i totally forgot to do.. i had so much jomework to do today!
first i had to write my final draft with my works cited for my English essay for Mrs. Silva's class.
then i had to write the 6 pages for this class. blog. and comment.
i also had math homework.

i now have to go and get ready for my concert thats @ 7, but i have to leave @ 6.
i have to go pick up my friend and boyfriend before that. get gas. all that good stuff.

oh and charge my dead phone.

ugh tonight when i get home i hear a shower calling my name, and then my sweet, good ol' bed<3

haven't done this in like 2 weeks lol.

well i guess i'll just say that i had an interesting day.

English class went by the slowest it seems it ever has for me.
Creative Writing did suprisively as well.
Then in my T.A class i was mad because on the first day back she had me doing hella shit. I have to go run 2 bins out to the recycle. Then i had to help pass out papers. Then she made me clean her nasty ass counters off, which took for ever and got me dirty. Help Mr.G's class. And grade all her calendars. Oh, and wash out garbage bins. She never ever has me do this much, and now all of a sudden on the 1st day back she springs all this on me? wow.
4th per(Choir)- I couldn't even sing because i'm still getting over having the flu, and my throat is crap lol.
5th per9Art-Also the same teacher i am a T.A for) She had me pick up her mess and finish grading the calandars.. she told me the T.A job caries over.. whatever
M.F.B- all of a sudden he cracked down today and started being mean. he for 1ce didn't let use listen to music, use your phones, go on the internet, play games, or even talk.. jeeze Bolding! what got into you?
then after school this big ol' drama thing happened..a fight..blah blah blah
i came home and seen my mom right before work, said hi to my bf for maybe 5mins, then he left back to work with my dad. and then i went to work.
now im at home blogging and i just want to lay down. im sooo tired. all i want is my bf, and my bed haha.
i gota go take a shower, blow dry and straighten my hair, get my stuff ready for school tomorrow, then i have plans with him(:
byeee.