my mom reminded me...

so  right now im playing a game called cribbage and it is soooo fun..if u havent played then u need to.

i hate not knowing..

this is very unlike you, you have always told me what's wrong with you! always. we are supposed to be bestfriends, and we always tell each other everything that is going on in our lvies no matter what; we agree'd that the truth is always best.. we have never had a problem talking to each other. now all of a sudden, you cant tell me this? you dont want to talk to me at all about this? i wish i knew what was going on.. i have no clue whats going on with you right now, and i hate it. i dont know what youre doing, where youre at, or how youre feeling.. you say youre okay, but i know youre not. i just wish you would tell me. im hoping you will tell me this weekend when you come over, but im not going to push you anymore. i fucking wish youd tell me though!!!!

well as i had read in class today..

i am still trying to come up with an answer to Rauls question.
i'm not sure how to answer it..
i mean i understand that i dont NEED him, but i know for sure I WANT him.
i need to be able to be happy without him. i need to work on myself. so im not all depressed or anything. because i pretty much gave up on life when we went on a break, and i shouldnt be like that.
he asked me what i have in my head about us.
about this world, out there. being on my own.
i need to learn independence.