i'm tired of it

I'm tired of the fighting between us. I know things happen, and we get angry. And i know there are misunderstandings. I let them all go because i don't want to argue or fight. But you? You insist on keeping the grudge. You keep the mistake lingering and can't forgive. you are always forgiven, but you never forgive. I don't get it, and wish the forgiveness was recipricle. Really. I hate it.

"Thank You For Smoking" ......

what a name for a T.V show, right?
haha random anyways...
so today i wrote about a list of things that i hate/dislike--
i will be adding to the list, listing 50 more things;
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1. pencils
2. video games
3. my dad
4. the smell of baby shit/the view of it too
5. REAL orange juice, & REAL lemonade
6. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
7. Barney
8. open doors
9. alarms
10. Ty food
11. Burger King
12. Arbey's
13. action movies
14. really long nails
15. babies crying
16. throw up
17. cramps
18. periods
19. pads
20. girls who don't do there makeup
21. apple & cherry pie
22. wine
23. beer
24. cigs
25. grey colored duct tape
26. 2 Pak
27. Mac Dre
28. Andre Nickotina
29. Westerns
30. when restuarants only give a few packets of whatever
31. liars
32. cheaters
33. when cats spray
34. skunks
35. disorganization
36. non cleanliness
37. when ppl dip crackers in water
38. day time
39. lights
40. ppl against gays/lez's
41. niggers
42. anything besides thongs
43. B.O
44. greasy hair
45. non shaved boyfriend
46. ear wax
47. ppl in costumes!!!!
48. girls sneakers
49. ppl that live here & cant speak English
50. a dead phone

Maury..

quite the show.
this show is so crazy and chaotic.
i'm watching an episode about cheating. being a babys father.
these DNA and lie tests are quite funny actually.
sometimes i wish i could run a lie test on a certain someone.
these people get so twore up.
they shouldn't even be there in the 1st place.
such a dramatic show,
and yet i still watch it and like it.
haha.
does anyone else?

i'm kinda bummed

i mean..we get a 3 day weekend, and i still can't really do anything. i asked to go to Great America, but then we found out they're shut down. My bf said 6 Flages, but im going there for Choir in a few weeks. My dad suggested the beach, but the water and everything is just way too cold. Then my mom tells us since she just had her week of vacation from work, and then she just went back.. she only has 1 day of work off this week. She normally gets 2 days off. So we could have done something. But no, she only gets Sunday. So Sunday i am going with her for the day and we are going Valentines Day shopping. Thursday i was bed ridden because as many people know, i pulled a musscle in my back; threw my back out. So i came home and just sat in a warm shower, or had my back massaged. My bf stayed the night as usual, but he went to work with my dad this morning. So i am stuck at home with my mom while she cleans, and im in pain. I have done all my HW already today and i think im just gona go shower. My mom has work @ 5 today though.. and i think my bf stays the night again tonight, but he goes home tomorrow morning for sure my parents said. So today i guess just like always im going to just lay around with my bf. Ohh, and th epulled musscle pain went away, but now the pain is up in my neck, and i have a kink. Isn't my weekend wonderful? Gah, Thursday was whatever. But now Friday i am just laying around in pain, without my bf, alone. This sucks. And tomorrow, i get to do the same shit because i doubt anyone can chill :/ no one ever can. So i was busy Thurs, & im busy Sun.. But 2day, and Sat.. just not the business :/ I'm in pain, bored, alone, & blahh.. fuhhhhk. I wish we had more shit to do. The movies is boring. I don't like to bowl much. Going out to a resturant is blah. The mall is busy & i gota save my $$$ for Vday anyways. Theres no street fair, or any event going on this weekend. Gah... Manteca is pretty gay!

sooo

today.
school.
meet up with an old friend.
picked up a friend.
went to Woodward.
dance practice.
friends house.
home.
English HW.
C.W Blog.
now i need to write those 6 pages.
then get dinner.
and shower.
straighten my hair..
crash.
try living my day.

hmm well i have had a horrible past 2 days

everything has just gone wrong and i hate it. i absolutely can not wait for this weekend. i am in lack of sleep so much.. even as i sit here and write this i am falling asleep. at work i literally just fell over and fell asleep. i just hate this week, it is honestly 1 of the worst weeks of my life. i have been awake like 13 hours or so and i am exhausted, even though i have stayed awake longer.. fitigue? ha that isn't powerful enough :P my eye lid has been fucking twitching for like a week straight and it's irritating the piss outa me D: anyways.. Oh! and nope, my Math For Business grade is still maintained @ an A, so i stayed @ a 4.0, and still am(: BUT, i think i did go down this time because i had another test.. it pisses me off that i always maintain perfect grades untill literally the day before progess reports.. i have maintained a 4/0 since Dec, and now it's gonna go down right before progess reports.. ughhh pisses me off. they better stay there!!!!