Why & how you can forgive the very man that cheated on you, lied to you, tricked you, abused you, controlled your every move, was rude to you, treated your family like shit, minipulated you, decieved you, turned you into something you weren't, ruled your life, forced you with things, changed you, and ruined you; but you can't forgive me?!
Why & how can you forgive the very man i introduced you to that cheated on you, lied to you, said hurtful things, made you cry, made you run away, tried to turn away from you, mind fucked you, and emotionally wrecked you; but you can't forgive me?!
Why & how can you forgive the very man that's your own cousin but lied to you, tricked you, was rude to you, said hurtful things, called you a bitch, said fuck off, told you that he hated the love of your life ans he was going to show no respect, made fun of you guys, judged you, told you your baby's fat, told you that you're fat, broke your family apart, brought drama, brought a 14yr old girl into the house when he's 21 after he talked shit on you (19) and your love (16), disrespected your stuff, left used condoms on your floor, and lied about having sex, went through your phone, behind your back and snuck, decieved, and ruined your' guys' used to be CLOSE "family-ship"(since you grew up together and were the closest cousins of the family); but you can't forgive me?!
Why & how can you forgive the very women that's your own mother that has tricked and conned you into doing stuff you didn't want to do because you were too shy to say no, who lied to you, who jerked you around, who ordered you to do religious things, who made you believe a bunch of bullshit, who talked shit, who wasn't happy with anything about you unless it was her way; but you can't forgive me?!
When I am the very women who was with you during all of this.
I stood by your side.
Never doing ANY of these things.
I was the best friend you could have, and you know that.
I developed you so much, and helped you so much.
I make 1 little mistake that was on accident,
that i apologized for over and over,
begged you to talk to/text me,
anything @ all...........
but NO.
You don't forgive ME.
ME.
wow.. ME
of all people.
ME.
well, "ME" is more sorry than any of those people ever were, and ever will be-- but you forgive them so easily, right?
I just don't understand you anymore, you're not who you used to be!
I love you so much, and i'm always here for you. You mean more to me then anything. You have no idea how much of an impact you leaving my life has been. I certainly never saw this coming, and I wish i would have so i could have avoided it because I can NOT take it anymore.
I'm tired of seeing you drive by in that car everyone knows you by- I want to be in that car with you again.
I'm tired of dreaming we made up, and we are doing things like old times- I want to make up, and do things like we used to.
I'm tired of texting your phone with no response when i know you're reading it instead of not being able to answer because you're driving and you answer later- I want you to text and ask if you can come over.
I'm tired of seeing your boyfriend that i got you @ school, thinking about you guys, watching him get into your car- I want to get picked up from school by you like i used to, I want to watch memories of us.
Because that's all I have now.
memories.
and they are slowly........ slowly fading.
but it's all I have unfortunately.
because you left me.
this was ANOTHER mistake by you!
that you did to ME.
again, ME.
Well, "me" can't take this anymore!!!!!!!!!!
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