this hurts so bad

i dated this guy for 2 years right.
and i met all of his family.
well, i got close to his cousin Virginia.
and we have been best friends for over 4yrs.
did everything together, almost every day;
i was with her through EVERYTHING!
she was home school, and brought up in church.
so she was really sheltered, and didnt have much of a life.
well, i got her out of her shell.
took her out places, let her hang out with my friends so she would have friends and have things to do. i even got her into drinking and smoking (bad, i know). i got her to wear makeup, actually wear jeans, and show off a little bit. i dyed her hair rainbow, and she gave me a trade of getting me into contacts. i went shopping with her, helped her raise her baby, got her through her divorce (@ 18!), went around with the family everywhere, went to her familys house in Palmdale or whatever. We were inseperable. i stayed the night @ her house, we always took pic, we were on each others MySpace, i got her to get the guts to drive. EVERYTHING. then, i introduced her to the boii she didnt know would become her EVERYTHING and more. they are made for each other. thanks to me; i made her.

and it all came crashing down this Halloween.
i brought someone to her house with this big group i was with, that i forgot she hated because her ex husband cheated on her with Reiko. i honestly fucking hella forgot!!!! ..right.
well, she doesn't forgive me.
at all.
and now,
we are no longer friends;

just like that.
like nothing.
she throws me out, never even thinking about it twice.
im dead to her.
she hates me.
for 1 mistake i have apologized over and over for.
i feel so bad.
i forgot.
i wish i could take it back...

ive tried to talk to her.
ive tried to text her.
ive tried to call her.
ive tried to message her on line.
ive tried talking to her through other people.
ive tried talking to her family.
having my parents talk to her.
my bf talk to her.
everything..

but she holds this grudge,
she wont let it go.

and i really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really wish she would!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need her back.
i cant handle not having her in my life.
i feel so alone.
so empty;
naked.
weird, odd.
misplaced.

she was my bestfriend,
and now,
my enemy.

an enemy,
i created,
when she 1ce was,
my best friend.

i made you.
you are something else now.
off on your own;

with the MySpace i made you.
the friends i got you, that you developed off of. You mooched off of. You wear a fake face, but i got you into that. your hair is cut how i put it, and colored back from what i had. you wear the style i got you into, and we have the same pants and flannels. you have your lisence, you're still with him. he helps you raise your baby, and handles the ex. the fam doesnt talk to me anymore, and you hate me. you continue to gets piercings and tats, i got you into. you continue to smoke almost every day, and drink every weekend, like i got you into.

you're a free spirit now,
what i made you.

i'm a lost spirit,
you changed me.

1ce again,
i made you who you are 2day.

and you just leave me,
alienated!

and live the life i used to live,
because i made you.

thanks alot,
some bestfriend.

i cant believe you just let me go because of 1 mistake.
when i forgave you for so much Virginia.
i was with you through it all.
now you throw me away.
so easily, like trash!
damn):

this hurts so bad!!!!!!!